Monday, July 31, 2006
YEAH!!! ONE MORE TO GO!!!
Finally over with BE and OB presentation.. think both was pretty well done.. cheers to darling groupies!!! haha.. was late for project meeting today.. Overslept.. Guess i'm too tired over work and perharps bcuz of e old hag who spoilt my day.. haha.. Shared with fellow groupies about the stupid auntie at work.. they all laughed like mad.. guess my description was hilarious.. haha..
Was busy organising stuffs for BE presentation.. Went with angel to e printing shop at library to print our logo on stickers.. Had a long time waiting.. I seriously think the school should open another printing stall.. Everytime these two places will be overcrowded and you have to wait super long to get your stuffs printed.. pathetic.. Haha.. had alot of fun while preparing.. took crazy pics too..
This sem seems fast.. So fast we going to be over with all presentations.. then exams.. then break.. then i will be flying off to beijing for internship.. Sob sob.. so fast!! i'm beginning to miss every single of my friends.. luckily i have my dearest clique with me or i might just slim down of homesick.. haha.. but isnt that a good thing? haha.. so happy today!! I can wear my blazer more loosely!! YEAH!!! no more difficulty in buttoning.. HAppy to see results from my diet.. i'm a step closer to my cheongsum.. haha..
Been reading this chic flick book called the desperate love diary of kelly ann.. super bimbotic and funny.. haha.. not bad a book.. haha.. OH MY!! i got one pimple that is going to emerge its head from my delicate skin!! ARGHHHHH.. haha.. i will try all means to kill it before it emerge.. haha.. think its due to lack of sleep.. after everything, i promise i will sleep like a log to revitalise my dearest skin.. haha.. Sounds so bimbotic..
Alright.. gtg.. hafta go write script for dpd tml and research abit for my gucci.. I hope i can do well for this assignment.. Well.. some pics for you guys to enjoy.. haha..
**sorry.. guess thats some problem with the server.. cant upload.. check it out soon.. hopefully i can upload them in success..
Finally over with BE and OB presentation.. think both was pretty well done.. cheers to darling groupies!!! haha.. was late for project meeting today.. Overslept.. Guess i'm too tired over work and perharps bcuz of e old hag who spoilt my day.. haha.. Shared with fellow groupies about the stupid auntie at work.. they all laughed like mad.. guess my description was hilarious.. haha..
Was busy organising stuffs for BE presentation.. Went with angel to e printing shop at library to print our logo on stickers.. Had a long time waiting.. I seriously think the school should open another printing stall.. Everytime these two places will be overcrowded and you have to wait super long to get your stuffs printed.. pathetic.. Haha.. had alot of fun while preparing.. took crazy pics too..
This sem seems fast.. So fast we going to be over with all presentations.. then exams.. then break.. then i will be flying off to beijing for internship.. Sob sob.. so fast!! i'm beginning to miss every single of my friends.. luckily i have my dearest clique with me or i might just slim down of homesick.. haha.. but isnt that a good thing? haha.. so happy today!! I can wear my blazer more loosely!! YEAH!!! no more difficulty in buttoning.. HAppy to see results from my diet.. i'm a step closer to my cheongsum.. haha..
Been reading this chic flick book called the desperate love diary of kelly ann.. super bimbotic and funny.. haha.. not bad a book.. haha.. OH MY!! i got one pimple that is going to emerge its head from my delicate skin!! ARGHHHHH.. haha.. i will try all means to kill it before it emerge.. haha.. think its due to lack of sleep.. after everything, i promise i will sleep like a log to revitalise my dearest skin.. haha.. Sounds so bimbotic..
Alright.. gtg.. hafta go write script for dpd tml and research abit for my gucci.. I hope i can do well for this assignment.. Well.. some pics for you guys to enjoy.. haha..
**sorry.. guess thats some problem with the server.. cant upload.. check it out soon.. hopefully i can upload them in success..
what we could have been, 8:51 PM.
Sunday, July 30, 2006
Hmmm.. hafen been blogging lately.. too busy with school work..
Just came back from work.. TOday my partner at work sucks.. I really dun like to work with this auntie.. She talks with sarcasm and i cannot stand her.. As per usual, the moment she start work already talks with thorn.. Heck care..
BUT!!! when I was on my way home, jocelyn called me to tell me that there was a shortage of 7.90.. i and e auntie had to bear half.. she keep complaining to my colleague about it. say that i e one who touch e cash register more etc.. PLEASE!! it's nt as though she never touch at all.. SO what if i touch it more? Maybe the shortage is due to her.. Say me.. Ask her to go eat shit man.. If i can kill her, i will DEFINITELY.. I seriously feel like slapping her.. I hate her to e core.. Shit you!! ARGHHHHH!!! I HATE YOU!!!
Grrr.. hafta vent this out. cannot take it down.. super fen nu.. GRRRR.. lucky bad days had ended.. if i'm still cheonging project like last week, bet i might really kill her.. At least the 1st 'dispute' at work is settled.. Ken talks to me again.. Just like last time.. Bet he got PMS.. Haiz.. i really wondered.. shld i ask him e reason? I know i did said i will ask him abt it even he talks to me.. and i'm curious to know why.. Maybe i should.. let's decide next week.. Luckily this problem is solved.. Imagine.. if it's not solved, today when i sell turtle food, he will be attituding me and plus that super annoying irritating pile of shit auntie, i might go crazy and i may burst one blood vessels.. haha.. i think if that really happens, my post will as long as toilet paper.. the big big roll kind.. Hmmm.. no matter wat, at least i feel better venting it out now..
PLEASE!!! DUN EVER LET ME WORK WITH THAT BITCH ANYMORE!!! (pardon my language.. i'm really annoyed) kill me to work with her.. seeing her face turn me off.. hearing her voice boils me up.. a combination of both simply makes me wanna kick her down e turtle pond.. haha.. whatever it is.. today had passed..pls dun ever have her irritate me again.. bet i will really take off my slipper and stuff it into her mouth.. haha.. imagining it makes me feel good and laugh.. WAHAHA.. cool..
Lalalala.. i'm happy again.. i simply love this blog.. haha..
Just came back from work.. TOday my partner at work sucks.. I really dun like to work with this auntie.. She talks with sarcasm and i cannot stand her.. As per usual, the moment she start work already talks with thorn.. Heck care..
BUT!!! when I was on my way home, jocelyn called me to tell me that there was a shortage of 7.90.. i and e auntie had to bear half.. she keep complaining to my colleague about it. say that i e one who touch e cash register more etc.. PLEASE!! it's nt as though she never touch at all.. SO what if i touch it more? Maybe the shortage is due to her.. Say me.. Ask her to go eat shit man.. If i can kill her, i will DEFINITELY.. I seriously feel like slapping her.. I hate her to e core.. Shit you!! ARGHHHHH!!! I HATE YOU!!!
Grrr.. hafta vent this out. cannot take it down.. super fen nu.. GRRRR.. lucky bad days had ended.. if i'm still cheonging project like last week, bet i might really kill her.. At least the 1st 'dispute' at work is settled.. Ken talks to me again.. Just like last time.. Bet he got PMS.. Haiz.. i really wondered.. shld i ask him e reason? I know i did said i will ask him abt it even he talks to me.. and i'm curious to know why.. Maybe i should.. let's decide next week.. Luckily this problem is solved.. Imagine.. if it's not solved, today when i sell turtle food, he will be attituding me and plus that super annoying irritating pile of shit auntie, i might go crazy and i may burst one blood vessels.. haha.. i think if that really happens, my post will as long as toilet paper.. the big big roll kind.. Hmmm.. no matter wat, at least i feel better venting it out now..
PLEASE!!! DUN EVER LET ME WORK WITH THAT BITCH ANYMORE!!! (pardon my language.. i'm really annoyed) kill me to work with her.. seeing her face turn me off.. hearing her voice boils me up.. a combination of both simply makes me wanna kick her down e turtle pond.. haha.. whatever it is.. today had passed..pls dun ever have her irritate me again.. bet i will really take off my slipper and stuff it into her mouth.. haha.. imagining it makes me feel good and laugh.. WAHAHA.. cool..
Lalalala.. i'm happy again.. i simply love this blog.. haha..
what we could have been, 10:15 PM.
Wednesday, July 26, 2006
Yawns!! so tired.. blog this admist editing my ppt.. *yawns* so tired.. cannot stand it..
ARGHHH!!! I hate dpd man.. make me so tired and worse of all.. you dun really know whether you are on e right track despite that we going to hand it in on friday.. hate it.. i really dunno how i m going to take e paper man.. so difficult and terms so weird. sian.. haiz.. i wanna do well this sem but dunno whether izzit possible. pls!! let me do well!! pls!!
watched qing mi hei sheng lin just nw.. SO NICE!! It's ending tomorrow.. Oh no.. but nvm, hope got good ending.. Kinda look forward to e next show.. miao shou ren xin 3!! yeah!! i love this kind of medical and police shows.. i simply love hk drama..
Haiz.. ticketing test coming up.. i'm so scared.. i hope i can score well.. i will practise and type faster.. hehe.. today dance was tiring.. went for 2 lessons.. Girls' hip hop and MTV.. like both dances today.. easy to learn and nice to dance.. But my body is aching.. but thats normal.. it means i did dance!! YEAH!! can lose weight!! hehe.. Next week going for 2 as well.. hope dance as nice as today. haha.. bryan is really a funny teacher.. he's so comical and tell ya.. he dances really well and nice.. his moves and steps so clear and style.. so does carol.. when can i be as pro?? i hope man..
alright.. nth much to add on.. gotta get back to work.. sleeping soon too!! tml got OB lec!! ARGHHH!!! nitex to all!! lala land here i come!!
ARGHHH!!! I hate dpd man.. make me so tired and worse of all.. you dun really know whether you are on e right track despite that we going to hand it in on friday.. hate it.. i really dunno how i m going to take e paper man.. so difficult and terms so weird. sian.. haiz.. i wanna do well this sem but dunno whether izzit possible. pls!! let me do well!! pls!!
watched qing mi hei sheng lin just nw.. SO NICE!! It's ending tomorrow.. Oh no.. but nvm, hope got good ending.. Kinda look forward to e next show.. miao shou ren xin 3!! yeah!! i love this kind of medical and police shows.. i simply love hk drama..
Haiz.. ticketing test coming up.. i'm so scared.. i hope i can score well.. i will practise and type faster.. hehe.. today dance was tiring.. went for 2 lessons.. Girls' hip hop and MTV.. like both dances today.. easy to learn and nice to dance.. But my body is aching.. but thats normal.. it means i did dance!! YEAH!! can lose weight!! hehe.. Next week going for 2 as well.. hope dance as nice as today. haha.. bryan is really a funny teacher.. he's so comical and tell ya.. he dances really well and nice.. his moves and steps so clear and style.. so does carol.. when can i be as pro?? i hope man..
alright.. nth much to add on.. gotta get back to work.. sleeping soon too!! tml got OB lec!! ARGHHH!!! nitex to all!! lala land here i come!!
what we could have been, 1:30 AM.
Monday, July 24, 2006
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LILIAN LOW!!! HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY!!! YEAH!!! CELEBRATE!!
Actually we just had a small cake blowing ceremony for her!! Pictures are below:
**note: I'm at home!! so not as cute!! HAHA!!
Actually we just had a small cake blowing ceremony for her!! Pictures are below:
**note: I'm at home!! so not as cute!! HAHA!!
what we could have been, 6:22 PM.
Went out with peixuan yesterday.. I was late again!! SOrry peixuan.. poor her.. waited for me so so so long.. haha.. We went to marina square to shop around.. SO many shops there!!
We went to visit(sounds like a wrong word) JR.. he was working at the lego shop.. When we reached, he wasnt there yet so i called him.. chey.. cuz he just came to work.. haha.. said hi and went back to shopping.. We went to ms selfridge to try on clothes.. all on sale!! spotted two skirts!! tried them on.. yeah!! i can wear!! happy happy.. dilemma!! dunno which one to get.. one is more simple as in easier to go with any thing.. the other is more demure.. i like e latter one more but i cannot think of a top to go with!! ARGHHH!!! dunno which one to get!! dead!!peixuan tried on so many tops and bottoms but she cannot decide which to buy cuz the one she like is $100!! too ex.. so we decided to walk ard further to mango, topshop etc..
went into zara 1st.. hmmm.. their clothes this season abit not what we like.. too flambuoyant and too adult.. move on to next shop.. went topshop.. hmmm.. dunno it's bcuz we dun like e style or e clothes not to our liking.. cant spot anything that catches my eyes unlike when i was in ms selfridge.. continue to walk and walk.. haiz.. no other shops nice..
decided to go back to ms selfridge to decide on my skirt.. BUT, after trying again, although i really liked it, but i still cannot bring myself to buy.. not that it's ex.. but i dunno which top to go with and it's abit too non casual.. it's abit like inappropriate to wear to school.. argh.. haha.. this time round, peixuan tried on a black dress.. haha.. so funny.. she looked so different in the dress.. it's like a child putting on her mum dress.. the cut was so high.. we cant stop laughing.. haha..finally decided to give up on ms selfridge and go off to other places.. haha.. we actually shopped ard and tried ard for almost 2 to 3 hrs..
dinner time!! went off for dinner.. decided to pop our head back to jr to make him jealous of us going for dinner.. hehe.. while talking to him, we shopped ard in the shop.. i didnt know lego had so many variations!! so interesting.. i saw this one whole set of ferrari sports car racing ground.. so cool and nice!! but it costs $199!! oh my god!! *faints* i wonder why people can bear to buy it.. so ex.. i can buy many many clothes with that.. saw magnets in lego bricks.. so many different colours.. so nice but ex too.. haiyo.. nowadays parents are really rich.. haha.. chatted, teased and lamed with jr for a while.. he chased us to dinner cuz he find us too nosiy.. haha.. alright.. hmph..
went to search for dinner.. decided to check out this pretty cool japanese restaurant.. went to look at their menu.. quite okay.. alright.. went in for dinner!! wah!! upon looking at the full menu, cant believe.. so many nice food to choose.. i'm drooling!! hmmm.. decided to go for something lighter.. udon!! hehe.. saw the desserts!! oh my!! so tempting.. look thru and realised their desserts are pretty healthy.. red bean paste with fruits etc. hmmm.. presentation shown was so nice.. dun care!! ordered too!! haha.. so me and peixuan ordered our food and waited.. while waiting, one waiter working there happened to be peixuan fren.. haha.. yeah!! get discount!! cool!! then came our food!! wah!! so nice!! my udon looked so delicious.. Oishiso!! Itadakimasu!!
arghhhhh.. i hate to eat japanese udon cuz i can never finish them.. same as ramen.. these two items are foods that i cannot finish no matter how hungry i m.. ate like 3 to 4 mouths and i was full.. haha.. too bad.. hafta push it away.. stupid peixuan can really eat.. she ate the entire bowl up.. so much k? haiyo..
ta dang!! here comes our dessert!!! Oishiso!! So delicious looking.. cant bear to eat it but i still do so.. hehe.. oh my!! so nice!! i felt as though i was in heaven! trust me.. their desserts is really ichiban!! haha.. finish our desserts, sat and talked..
decided to move onto suntec for further shopping.. but, when we reach there, most shops are closed.. hmmm.. no choice.. decided to head home.. it was a fruitless day(except our stomach) but enjoyable one!! yeah!! peixuan!! we must go out again!!
**pls dun say i'm in love with you again. i bet it's e other way round!! keep asking me to try those revealing dresses!! i know you are fantasizing.. haha..
Pictures of yesterday!!
We went to visit(sounds like a wrong word) JR.. he was working at the lego shop.. When we reached, he wasnt there yet so i called him.. chey.. cuz he just came to work.. haha.. said hi and went back to shopping.. We went to ms selfridge to try on clothes.. all on sale!! spotted two skirts!! tried them on.. yeah!! i can wear!! happy happy.. dilemma!! dunno which one to get.. one is more simple as in easier to go with any thing.. the other is more demure.. i like e latter one more but i cannot think of a top to go with!! ARGHHH!!! dunno which one to get!! dead!!peixuan tried on so many tops and bottoms but she cannot decide which to buy cuz the one she like is $100!! too ex.. so we decided to walk ard further to mango, topshop etc..
went into zara 1st.. hmmm.. their clothes this season abit not what we like.. too flambuoyant and too adult.. move on to next shop.. went topshop.. hmmm.. dunno it's bcuz we dun like e style or e clothes not to our liking.. cant spot anything that catches my eyes unlike when i was in ms selfridge.. continue to walk and walk.. haiz.. no other shops nice..
decided to go back to ms selfridge to decide on my skirt.. BUT, after trying again, although i really liked it, but i still cannot bring myself to buy.. not that it's ex.. but i dunno which top to go with and it's abit too non casual.. it's abit like inappropriate to wear to school.. argh.. haha.. this time round, peixuan tried on a black dress.. haha.. so funny.. she looked so different in the dress.. it's like a child putting on her mum dress.. the cut was so high.. we cant stop laughing.. haha..finally decided to give up on ms selfridge and go off to other places.. haha.. we actually shopped ard and tried ard for almost 2 to 3 hrs..
dinner time!! went off for dinner.. decided to pop our head back to jr to make him jealous of us going for dinner.. hehe.. while talking to him, we shopped ard in the shop.. i didnt know lego had so many variations!! so interesting.. i saw this one whole set of ferrari sports car racing ground.. so cool and nice!! but it costs $199!! oh my god!! *faints* i wonder why people can bear to buy it.. so ex.. i can buy many many clothes with that.. saw magnets in lego bricks.. so many different colours.. so nice but ex too.. haiyo.. nowadays parents are really rich.. haha.. chatted, teased and lamed with jr for a while.. he chased us to dinner cuz he find us too nosiy.. haha.. alright.. hmph..
went to search for dinner.. decided to check out this pretty cool japanese restaurant.. went to look at their menu.. quite okay.. alright.. went in for dinner!! wah!! upon looking at the full menu, cant believe.. so many nice food to choose.. i'm drooling!! hmmm.. decided to go for something lighter.. udon!! hehe.. saw the desserts!! oh my!! so tempting.. look thru and realised their desserts are pretty healthy.. red bean paste with fruits etc. hmmm.. presentation shown was so nice.. dun care!! ordered too!! haha.. so me and peixuan ordered our food and waited.. while waiting, one waiter working there happened to be peixuan fren.. haha.. yeah!! get discount!! cool!! then came our food!! wah!! so nice!! my udon looked so delicious.. Oishiso!! Itadakimasu!!
arghhhhh.. i hate to eat japanese udon cuz i can never finish them.. same as ramen.. these two items are foods that i cannot finish no matter how hungry i m.. ate like 3 to 4 mouths and i was full.. haha.. too bad.. hafta push it away.. stupid peixuan can really eat.. she ate the entire bowl up.. so much k? haiyo..
ta dang!! here comes our dessert!!! Oishiso!! So delicious looking.. cant bear to eat it but i still do so.. hehe.. oh my!! so nice!! i felt as though i was in heaven! trust me.. their desserts is really ichiban!! haha.. finish our desserts, sat and talked..
decided to move onto suntec for further shopping.. but, when we reach there, most shops are closed.. hmmm.. no choice.. decided to head home.. it was a fruitless day(except our stomach) but enjoyable one!! yeah!! peixuan!! we must go out again!!
**pls dun say i'm in love with you again. i bet it's e other way round!! keep asking me to try those revealing dresses!! i know you are fantasizing.. haha..
Pictures of yesterday!!
what we could have been, 4:42 PM.
Saturday, July 22, 2006
I believe in karma dun you?
Yesterday was so enjoyable but today was a torture.. I went for work today.. woke up late.. had to took cab from harbourfront.. waste money again.. another mission to be added to my list: to minimize or totally eliminate cab takings.. kill me or burn my atm pls!! i'm contributing too much to singapore's GDP... haha..
Although i took cab, i was still late.. grrr.. but no choice.. hafta rush in time for turtle food.. I was waiting for today til my neck long.. People who had read my previous blog will know my mission for today.. RECAP: CONFRONT STUPID KEN!!!
I was preparing to confront that mr attitude from last week..BUT!!! AS MANY HAD QUESTIONED!!! KEN WAS OFF TODAY!! OH MY GOD!! I'm not working tml!! Means, i hafta wait til next week.. wat the hell.. kill me pls.. perharps it might be good.. cuz he may change his attitude to me and we will be back to friendS!! yeah!! BUT, i m just imagining.. things may become worse and we might become enemies!! ARGH!!! NO WAY!! I want my life to be peaceful and nice.. i dun wan enemies and all meanos(except chan cheow joo) to be in my life!!! haha..
nvm.. i ren!! next week.. the day will definitely come.. haha. maybe he can foresee his doom so he took off.. maybe.. hmmm.. anyway, continuing.. i was working like mad for the entire day.. it seems like work is never ending.. i felt so drained.. so tired.. i sold so many roasted squids today.. i think near 70 plus or less or more.. but i know it sure surpass my previous record of 55.. haha.. i can understand.. everyone is attracted by my mei li..wahaha!! i got so much mei li to that extend.. and the outcome?? I STINK LIKE A SQUID.. joceyln say i smell like a squid.. i faster go bathe after work.. oh my.. can you imagine sitting beside a girl who smells like a squid? oh my.. i bet no one will sit near me man.. haha.. i dun want to be chased down the bus.. haha..
haiz.. work is really tiring today.. bet i drained 80% of my energy.. if not for the pay and to support my shopping etc, i think i will quit and wait at home for my prince charming to come to give me money.. where?? where's my rich lao gong?? i wanna be tai tai.. i can foresee him.. tall, handsome, chicken burger with chocs.. and full of money.. sportscar.. oh my.. too handsome for you all to imagine and you all better dun.. i dun want you all to drool with envy.. haha..
yawns..drained.. by work.. by stupid cockroach..waste my energy running ard and screaming my head off.. haha.. alright.. night my fellow friends..
night to everyone.. i love you all and take care!! *muacks*
Yesterday was so enjoyable but today was a torture.. I went for work today.. woke up late.. had to took cab from harbourfront.. waste money again.. another mission to be added to my list: to minimize or totally eliminate cab takings.. kill me or burn my atm pls!! i'm contributing too much to singapore's GDP... haha..
Although i took cab, i was still late.. grrr.. but no choice.. hafta rush in time for turtle food.. I was waiting for today til my neck long.. People who had read my previous blog will know my mission for today.. RECAP: CONFRONT STUPID KEN!!!
I was preparing to confront that mr attitude from last week..BUT!!! AS MANY HAD QUESTIONED!!! KEN WAS OFF TODAY!! OH MY GOD!! I'm not working tml!! Means, i hafta wait til next week.. wat the hell.. kill me pls.. perharps it might be good.. cuz he may change his attitude to me and we will be back to friendS!! yeah!! BUT, i m just imagining.. things may become worse and we might become enemies!! ARGH!!! NO WAY!! I want my life to be peaceful and nice.. i dun wan enemies and all meanos(except chan cheow joo) to be in my life!!! haha..
nvm.. i ren!! next week.. the day will definitely come.. haha. maybe he can foresee his doom so he took off.. maybe.. hmmm.. anyway, continuing.. i was working like mad for the entire day.. it seems like work is never ending.. i felt so drained.. so tired.. i sold so many roasted squids today.. i think near 70 plus or less or more.. but i know it sure surpass my previous record of 55.. haha.. i can understand.. everyone is attracted by my mei li..wahaha!! i got so much mei li to that extend.. and the outcome?? I STINK LIKE A SQUID.. joceyln say i smell like a squid.. i faster go bathe after work.. oh my.. can you imagine sitting beside a girl who smells like a squid? oh my.. i bet no one will sit near me man.. haha.. i dun want to be chased down the bus.. haha..
haiz.. work is really tiring today.. bet i drained 80% of my energy.. if not for the pay and to support my shopping etc, i think i will quit and wait at home for my prince charming to come to give me money.. where?? where's my rich lao gong?? i wanna be tai tai.. i can foresee him.. tall, handsome, chicken burger with chocs.. and full of money.. sportscar.. oh my.. too handsome for you all to imagine and you all better dun.. i dun want you all to drool with envy.. haha..
yawns..drained.. by work.. by stupid cockroach..waste my energy running ard and screaming my head off.. haha.. alright.. night my fellow friends..
night to everyone.. i love you all and take care!! *muacks*
what we could have been, 11:55 PM.
Hmmm.. like i mentioned in my last post, i wanna grab back my friendS!!! So, i joined shufen, nerine, jess, colleen n garry out on friday. Inititally we wanted to watch movie, sing kbox and eat.. But in the end, after checking out the price.. TMD!! Bloody expensive.. i think kbox become more ex already.. becoming more and more bo hua. then wanted to eat at this hong kong cafe at cine but colleen n garry find it expensive.. after a big round, we decided to head down to marina for steamboat..
OH MY!!! STEAMBOAT!! IT'S FATTENING!! MY DIET!!
haha.. but in the end, i went cuz they convince that i can eat soup de..
ARGH!!! ADMIST OF TYPING THIS!! I SAW A COCKROACH!!! HAI ME SCREAM LIKE MAD ARD MY HOUSE.. LUCKILY IT WAS SUBDUED BY ME!! HAHA.. BACK TO STORY..
haiyo..now left no voice.. haha.. it was an enjoyable dinner.. took many pics.. ate many stuffs.. create so many spastic stuffs.. haha.. cooked so many food and tried various methodas and creation of the 'chefs'.. haha.. enjoyable!!! happy!! after dinner, we headed home.. me and shufen dont feel like going home so went to esplanade.. like last time, we sat by the bay and chatted.. i love the chat.. it's so heartwarming and nice except for shufen's stupid scenarios.. haha..
hmmm.. i really felt happy yesterday.. bet it's one of my happiest days in life.. haha.. i thank whoever had answered my prayers to make my wish come true.. continue to bless me and my friends.. i love you all.. muacks!!
OH MY!!! STEAMBOAT!! IT'S FATTENING!! MY DIET!!
haha.. but in the end, i went cuz they convince that i can eat soup de..
ARGH!!! ADMIST OF TYPING THIS!! I SAW A COCKROACH!!! HAI ME SCREAM LIKE MAD ARD MY HOUSE.. LUCKILY IT WAS SUBDUED BY ME!! HAHA.. BACK TO STORY..
haiyo..now left no voice.. haha.. it was an enjoyable dinner.. took many pics.. ate many stuffs.. create so many spastic stuffs.. haha.. cooked so many food and tried various methodas and creation of the 'chefs'.. haha.. enjoyable!!! happy!! after dinner, we headed home.. me and shufen dont feel like going home so went to esplanade.. like last time, we sat by the bay and chatted.. i love the chat.. it's so heartwarming and nice except for shufen's stupid scenarios.. haha..
hmmm.. i really felt happy yesterday.. bet it's one of my happiest days in life.. haha.. i thank whoever had answered my prayers to make my wish come true.. continue to bless me and my friends.. i love you all.. muacks!!
what we could have been, 11:36 PM.
Thursday, July 20, 2006
Hmmm.. hafen been blogging for days.. too busy with projs.. Saw shufen that day after lecture.. Talked to her for awhile.. suddenly feel nice.. it been ages since i gone out with her.. last time we use to take 23 together. then we will go to bugis and hand ard at either rockery or mos to chit chat, laugh and gossip.. hmmm.. miss those days..
finish reading jess blog.. izzit true that friends come and go?? i dun actually believe it til i began to feel it.. sometimes i wonder.. izzit good to have many friends or jus few friends..
PROs:many frens
-great company
-crazy rara together
-more gossip shared
-n many things you do as a big group
PROs: few friends
-you will be close and always be with them
-you will not drift away from them
-you can take neoprints easier
-and many things you love to do in a small group
hmmm..looks like they balance out.. haiz.. to me, many friends or few frens is almost e same. bcuz they bring me joy. but perharps if i got a chance, i may choose to revert to few frens. i really really miss e days whereby we 4(known as e kBox gAng) go around together, watch movie, laugh loudly, shopping, taking neoprints and many more.. maybe i should do smth!! i feel that friends go because you dun make them stay. so this means, i hafta do smth to salvage my kBox ganG.. they are like a log in the sea.. floating further and further from me.. but i know i hafta grab it back before i float off to e other side of e sea.. the world is so big.. It's really fate for me to meet them and become real close frens with them.. this lifetime they are my frens, next lifetime they may not be.. so i must grab hold of all chances to go out with them.. hear that my darlings?? I'M FREE!!! haha..
dun worry my other frens!! I LOVE YOU ALL TOO!! i wont neglect you guys..
Hmmm..went out with joanne and jocelyn yesterday.. 1st time threesome outing.. i really must say.. it's fun and i dun mind doing it again.. haha.. we wanted to watCh pirates but in the end, we end up shopping in dorothy perkins for an hr.. and i bought pants, top and a belt!! What does a belt means?? it means i'm getting slimmer and my skirt is dropping.. I need a BELT!! haha.. everything's on sale!! how much i hope i have a rich husband to give me a unlimited card to swipe all i want.. wonderful!!! hmmm...
Projects are really getting on my nerves.. I did nt sleep at all for yest or i shld say today.. i went straight to school for dpd.. almost fainted.. my eyes cannot open at all.. mr lim changed our class to 830am!! GOD!! 830?? U can imagine how early it is.. Majority of the class is half dead.. the others are dead.. haha.. it's seriously too early.. Haha.. bad things never end.. When i was cosy sloughing in my chair listening to others present, then a grp of students outside told mr lim that they are having lessons at 9 in tat classroom.. huh?? Everyone was sighing.. Mr lim got us into a wrong room.. haiz.. SO, the group of coprses and zombies made their way to another classroom. The 1 and 1 half hr tutorial was so difficult to pass.. Everyone was in their lala land.. Haiz..
After class, went to lab to continue bus ent.. I cannot concentrate at all.. all i can see and think of is my bed and bloster.. So, went off to canteen with may may to grab breakfast so that we will be more awake.. Then saw shao at canteen.. that fellow had not been saying hi to me lately.. so i always scold him dao.. thus today, when he see me, he said a big and enthusiastic HELLO!!! haha.. so reluctant.. but it's okay.. who ask him to be my best buddy!! haha..
FINALLY!! proj done.. we had problems printing and end up late submission.. what the.. grrr.. shitty hell.. but forget it, i got no more strength to waste.. got back my fashion.. DAmn it!! C!! wat the hell!! i tell myself i must do better for gucci!! I shall uphold the name of GUCCI!!! haha.. Haiz.. When you are low and tired, everything just dun come down your way smoothly..
YAWNS!! alrighty!! missions: find back my drifted darlings, strive better for fashion, aim to lose more weight, be more punctual for class!!
minasan.. my eyes are closing.. my jay is waiting for me.. so does my he jun xiang, beckham, elvin ng, julian hee and many more hunks.. here i come!! bye all!! dun be jealous.. they are all MINE!!! wahaha!!!
zzZZZZZZ.......
finish reading jess blog.. izzit true that friends come and go?? i dun actually believe it til i began to feel it.. sometimes i wonder.. izzit good to have many friends or jus few friends..
PROs:many frens
-great company
-crazy rara together
-more gossip shared
-n many things you do as a big group
PROs: few friends
-you will be close and always be with them
-you will not drift away from them
-you can take neoprints easier
-and many things you love to do in a small group
hmmm..looks like they balance out.. haiz.. to me, many friends or few frens is almost e same. bcuz they bring me joy. but perharps if i got a chance, i may choose to revert to few frens. i really really miss e days whereby we 4(known as e kBox gAng) go around together, watch movie, laugh loudly, shopping, taking neoprints and many more.. maybe i should do smth!! i feel that friends go because you dun make them stay. so this means, i hafta do smth to salvage my kBox ganG.. they are like a log in the sea.. floating further and further from me.. but i know i hafta grab it back before i float off to e other side of e sea.. the world is so big.. It's really fate for me to meet them and become real close frens with them.. this lifetime they are my frens, next lifetime they may not be.. so i must grab hold of all chances to go out with them.. hear that my darlings?? I'M FREE!!! haha..
dun worry my other frens!! I LOVE YOU ALL TOO!! i wont neglect you guys..
Hmmm..went out with joanne and jocelyn yesterday.. 1st time threesome outing.. i really must say.. it's fun and i dun mind doing it again.. haha.. we wanted to watCh pirates but in the end, we end up shopping in dorothy perkins for an hr.. and i bought pants, top and a belt!! What does a belt means?? it means i'm getting slimmer and my skirt is dropping.. I need a BELT!! haha.. everything's on sale!! how much i hope i have a rich husband to give me a unlimited card to swipe all i want.. wonderful!!! hmmm...
Projects are really getting on my nerves.. I did nt sleep at all for yest or i shld say today.. i went straight to school for dpd.. almost fainted.. my eyes cannot open at all.. mr lim changed our class to 830am!! GOD!! 830?? U can imagine how early it is.. Majority of the class is half dead.. the others are dead.. haha.. it's seriously too early.. Haha.. bad things never end.. When i was cosy sloughing in my chair listening to others present, then a grp of students outside told mr lim that they are having lessons at 9 in tat classroom.. huh?? Everyone was sighing.. Mr lim got us into a wrong room.. haiz.. SO, the group of coprses and zombies made their way to another classroom. The 1 and 1 half hr tutorial was so difficult to pass.. Everyone was in their lala land.. Haiz..
After class, went to lab to continue bus ent.. I cannot concentrate at all.. all i can see and think of is my bed and bloster.. So, went off to canteen with may may to grab breakfast so that we will be more awake.. Then saw shao at canteen.. that fellow had not been saying hi to me lately.. so i always scold him dao.. thus today, when he see me, he said a big and enthusiastic HELLO!!! haha.. so reluctant.. but it's okay.. who ask him to be my best buddy!! haha..
FINALLY!! proj done.. we had problems printing and end up late submission.. what the.. grrr.. shitty hell.. but forget it, i got no more strength to waste.. got back my fashion.. DAmn it!! C!! wat the hell!! i tell myself i must do better for gucci!! I shall uphold the name of GUCCI!!! haha.. Haiz.. When you are low and tired, everything just dun come down your way smoothly..
YAWNS!! alrighty!! missions: find back my drifted darlings, strive better for fashion, aim to lose more weight, be more punctual for class!!
minasan.. my eyes are closing.. my jay is waiting for me.. so does my he jun xiang, beckham, elvin ng, julian hee and many more hunks.. here i come!! bye all!! dun be jealous.. they are all MINE!!! wahaha!!!
zzZZZZZZ.......
what we could have been, 10:33 PM.
Monday, July 17, 2006
Arghhh!!! I hate cockroaches!!
Just now when i was doing my project, i went off to take a drink. When i come back to my seat and wanted to continue my work, guess wat? A cockroach was crawling around my chair!!! It wanted to crawl onto me but lucky my sister saw it.. Both of us screamed like mad and jumped up.. The cockroach is so huge and fat!! N it can fly!!! ARGHHHH!!!! My goodness shit!! I almost fainted!!! Then the heroine of the night came, my grandma!! She tried to catch the cockroach but it flew ard the room!! Oh my god!! I and my sis screamed and dodged like mad.. In the end, it flew to the window. We faster close the window. I dun care whether it got squashed or wat. All i know is that i hafta save myself!! Now, my windows are shut tight and I'm still at my com. I keep looking around. I scare the cockroach may come back and take revenge.. EEEEKKKSSSS.. I simply hate cockroach!! Get the hell out of my world you ugly fellow!!!
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! If I can perform magic, i sure transform myself into an insectide. i make sure i aim properly at the cockroach and spray til it dies and vanish. Oh my.. i feeling so itchy.. Super er dao.. *itch itch*
Just now when i was doing my project, i went off to take a drink. When i come back to my seat and wanted to continue my work, guess wat? A cockroach was crawling around my chair!!! It wanted to crawl onto me but lucky my sister saw it.. Both of us screamed like mad and jumped up.. The cockroach is so huge and fat!! N it can fly!!! ARGHHHH!!!! My goodness shit!! I almost fainted!!! Then the heroine of the night came, my grandma!! She tried to catch the cockroach but it flew ard the room!! Oh my god!! I and my sis screamed and dodged like mad.. In the end, it flew to the window. We faster close the window. I dun care whether it got squashed or wat. All i know is that i hafta save myself!! Now, my windows are shut tight and I'm still at my com. I keep looking around. I scare the cockroach may come back and take revenge.. EEEEKKKSSSS.. I simply hate cockroach!! Get the hell out of my world you ugly fellow!!!
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! If I can perform magic, i sure transform myself into an insectide. i make sure i aim properly at the cockroach and spray til it dies and vanish. Oh my.. i feeling so itchy.. Super er dao.. *itch itch*
what we could have been, 11:36 PM.
Hmmm.. After pouring out all my sorrows and all my feelings, I feel so so so much better.. Maybe that is my intention of setting a blog.. it is my place of comfort and a place for me to express all that i want..
Hmmm.. I wrote on my nick in msn abt some of my feelings.. Haha.. Everyone click on me and asked.. Yup.. I was sad but that was then.. NOW!! I'm back to the linda who is happy and cheerful!! the one with a bright smile!!
Haha.. i know i'm fine now.. smiles.. jus finish talking to jingmin and jess on msn.. they made me happy.. i was thinking previously that they dun like me etc etc.. but actually it's that i think too much.. hmmm.. glad.. as for stupid ken, i will see how it goes next week.. hmph.. dun talk abt him.. dampen my mood..
Was editing my blog just now.. Add blogskin.. Go through so many thousand blogskins.. Finally settle on this one i'm using now.. Haha.. Jess say it's childish but nvm.. i like.. haha.. The girl in the blog is my motivation to slim down.. I should go blow up a picture of her and hang it in my room.. Haha.. Maybe when i come back from beijing i might become like her.. haha.. People, imagine!! Woah!! That is so pretty.. haha.. I had problems adding this blogskin because i m a blog idiot.. haha.. lucky got my sis help me.. Although she love to be my PI(private investigator), i still love her!! MUacks!!
Hehe.. Think my emotions just undergone a roller coaster ride.. Was happy then sad then very sad then happy and now, very happy!! haha.. I'm crazy.. I hate to be sad.. I love to smile.. I promise to be happy and really happy cuz i know everyone loves me so i wont make them sad.. hehe.. Hmmm.. Still gotta cheong projects.. Sian..
Alright.. tired to type.. type too much just now.. back to projects!! last but not least!!! A smile for everyone!!
haha.. i know this picture is super spastic!! haha.. but dont you love it?? Wahaha!!!
Hmmm.. I wrote on my nick in msn abt some of my feelings.. Haha.. Everyone click on me and asked.. Yup.. I was sad but that was then.. NOW!! I'm back to the linda who is happy and cheerful!! the one with a bright smile!!
Haha.. i know i'm fine now.. smiles.. jus finish talking to jingmin and jess on msn.. they made me happy.. i was thinking previously that they dun like me etc etc.. but actually it's that i think too much.. hmmm.. glad.. as for stupid ken, i will see how it goes next week.. hmph.. dun talk abt him.. dampen my mood..
Was editing my blog just now.. Add blogskin.. Go through so many thousand blogskins.. Finally settle on this one i'm using now.. Haha.. Jess say it's childish but nvm.. i like.. haha.. The girl in the blog is my motivation to slim down.. I should go blow up a picture of her and hang it in my room.. Haha.. Maybe when i come back from beijing i might become like her.. haha.. People, imagine!! Woah!! That is so pretty.. haha.. I had problems adding this blogskin because i m a blog idiot.. haha.. lucky got my sis help me.. Although she love to be my PI(private investigator), i still love her!! MUacks!!
Hehe.. Think my emotions just undergone a roller coaster ride.. Was happy then sad then very sad then happy and now, very happy!! haha.. I'm crazy.. I hate to be sad.. I love to smile.. I promise to be happy and really happy cuz i know everyone loves me so i wont make them sad.. hehe.. Hmmm.. Still gotta cheong projects.. Sian..
Alright.. tired to type.. type too much just now.. back to projects!! last but not least!!! A smile for everyone!!
haha.. i know this picture is super spastic!! haha.. but dont you love it?? Wahaha!!!
what we could have been, 10:03 PM.
This is my new blog.. It's kinda funny.. Everytime when i'm down or really struck by something that upsets me, i will start a blog.. Maybe because there's no where else for me to drown my sorrows except here.. When things turn better, i might just stop writing.. But i hope i wont cuz it's bad to do so..
Recently, I became abit emotional.. I dunno whether izzit influence or due to stress.. i guess it's the latter.. all projects are coming up.. i got so many things on hand that i hafen complete.. I have bus enterprise, DPD, fashion and many more to do.. ARGH!! I cant take it anymore!! i hate projects!!! They are getting on my nerves.. Maybe it's due to stress that makes me to become a bit emotional.. N i think recently many things haf happened.. I suddenly got this thinking.. M i a pest? How come everyone starts to show attitude to me? Or izzit i think too much? But i dun like this feeling at all.. I really dont.. Alright.. Perharps you would want to know what happened.. let me list them..
Lets start from home.. My stupid computer is giving problems AGAIN!!! I cannot log into my profile.. All my data is trapped.. Lucky i had them saved in my thumbdrive but it's really frustrating.. I called ACER up for help BUT they are 24/7 engaged.. What the.. I really feel very angry!! What kind of stupid service is this? GRRRR!!!! But the lucky thing is that, i still can use it to do my project using my sister account.. Phew!! or else i seriously will tear down the entire ACER building..
Next, move onto work.. Recently, i had problems with one of my colleague.. i shall not mention name but some will know who that person is after reading.. This particular colleague, lets call A. last time, A used to be on good terms with me. i gotta know A better during work.. A is nice and fun to chat with.. i always enjoy chatting with A. A is also my eye candy btw. but, recently, i sense that his attitude towards me had changed.. take it as i'm paranoid. but i jus haf this feeling that he had some misunderstanding towards me. last time, he used to suan n lame with me. but recently, he seems to refuse to talk to me. the first time when it happen, i ask him, "eh, why today you so quiet?" he replied cuz he's in a bad mood. alright, so i left him along. after then, he did talked to me but it dropped to jus hi, bye n smile. weird.. but til yesterday, when i worked with him again, he showed attitude. when i reach e stall, i saw him. i wanted to say hi but he did not look at me so i waited. but after he's done with his work, he stand aside and not facing me(usually he will stand/sit beside me). i sense unfriendliness. then when a girl drop her cap into e pond, i ask him to help. last time when such thing happen, he will joke and ask me to take it myself. but yest, he asked me who dropped it in a very harsh tone and buay song face. I began to sense things going really wrong. then, when he help to pick up e cap, he smile so brightly to e gal. when he return to my side, he immediately changed back to his buay song attitude. this really pissed me!!! I can seriously feel something's wrong. So, when he decided to close e turtle thingy, i really cannot take it anymore. I slammed the stupid cover and i walked off. I dun care if he can see that i'm angry or wat. I really am. I was so bloody pissed off that I think my fiery thermometer shot to e top. then later after dinner, i talked to one of my other colleague. she too felt it's weird. SO, i decided!! If next week he's going to continue show attitude to me, i'm going to ask him. Ask him what's wrong and why is he showing such attitude to me? I wanna clear things up. I dun want to leave my workplace with someone having hatred towards me. N, i treat him as a fren. It jus like if my fren do this to me, i will do e same by probing. You may think i'm stubborn. YES I M!! It's my principle. I want to know all reasons if a person dislike or attitude me. If it's my fault, i apologise. If it's not, at least i know it's not and i will definitely leave e person alone. I WANNA KNOW THE REASON!!!!! I DUN CARE!!!
Now, move onto friends.. SEE? i told you i got many things to pour out. Okay. first starting with jingmin. I was seriously sorry and upset when i read her blog. I admit i was forgettful to remind her i'm not meeting peixuan(she wanted to join us). I did not know it affected her so much til i read her blog. I quickly sms her and apologise. Although she replied nvm, but i still feel bad. Haiz.. I know she's havin bad days recently and i added onto it. So sorry!! I dun mean it!!! Haiz.. after this, the above incident happened. add onto my feelings. i began to wonder. M i a bad fren or person? Why i seem to be making everyone sad n angry? Why why?? why m i so insensitive to hurt ppl? I'm sorry.. I really felt very very bad. Haiz.. With all e mixed feelings etc, i still hafta continue my projs.. Sian..
Today, while doing my project, i wandered to friendster. HEhe.. breather ma.. Then i saw new uploaded photos. I saw the photos uploaded in colleen friendster. They(shufen, colleen n jess) went to billy bombers on sat. I wasnt invited. in the photos, they look really happy n seems to enjoy themselves alot.. i m really upset.. We used to be a clique and we are really happy together.. but after hols, we drifted or i should i drifted from them. I was pretty upset by this fact quite some time back(long story, dun wish to mention. Only some ppl will know). But last last fri after going out with them, i felt really happy.. i can feel some closeness with them.. i'm really happy.. but today aft seeing the photos, i began to wonder.. izzit jus one sided thing.. maybe to them, i m jus a fren as in normal level 1 fren.. i wasnt invited to join them.. i feel sad.. n after reading colleen testi to shufen n jess, i feel useless.. colleen, one of my close fren was experiencing bad times yet i wasnt by her side.. i feel really bad.. plus all e photos i saw, i think they three are really a clique.. i dun think they remember me.. i know i miss them alot but i dun think i got any more chance to join them.. its my fault.. who ask me to drift from them.. n.. recently when i talk to my best fren jess, i got this feeling that she dun really enjoy talking to me lidat.. her replies are all short and i dunno how to explain.. jus got this feeling.. i feel sad.. i think i'm losing her as a fren too.. she's my best fren..
i dunno what had happened.. but i jus feel that i'm a lousy person n fren.. everyone dun like me.. i really feel very xin gu!! i wanna shout out all my feelings!!! I need someone to help me.. i feel like crying.. i actually did.. i dunno.. i really feel that i m a useless and pest on earth.. i feel that everyone might be happy if i dun go near them etc.. ARGH!!!! i dunno!! I cannot take it anymore!! i wanna cry out loud.. i feel very terrible!!! i need a bad cry n i really do.. can someone help mE??? i wanna cry but i know i cant cuz i know if i do, i might scare my ah ma n my dad who's at home with me now.. pls.. linda.. control urself.. maybe i'm thinking too much..
i hope i am and to all mentioned in the blog, do not be affected by this post.. i just need somewhere to vent my feelings.. i still love you all..
Recently, I became abit emotional.. I dunno whether izzit influence or due to stress.. i guess it's the latter.. all projects are coming up.. i got so many things on hand that i hafen complete.. I have bus enterprise, DPD, fashion and many more to do.. ARGH!! I cant take it anymore!! i hate projects!!! They are getting on my nerves.. Maybe it's due to stress that makes me to become a bit emotional.. N i think recently many things haf happened.. I suddenly got this thinking.. M i a pest? How come everyone starts to show attitude to me? Or izzit i think too much? But i dun like this feeling at all.. I really dont.. Alright.. Perharps you would want to know what happened.. let me list them..
Lets start from home.. My stupid computer is giving problems AGAIN!!! I cannot log into my profile.. All my data is trapped.. Lucky i had them saved in my thumbdrive but it's really frustrating.. I called ACER up for help BUT they are 24/7 engaged.. What the.. I really feel very angry!! What kind of stupid service is this? GRRRR!!!! But the lucky thing is that, i still can use it to do my project using my sister account.. Phew!! or else i seriously will tear down the entire ACER building..
Next, move onto work.. Recently, i had problems with one of my colleague.. i shall not mention name but some will know who that person is after reading.. This particular colleague, lets call A. last time, A used to be on good terms with me. i gotta know A better during work.. A is nice and fun to chat with.. i always enjoy chatting with A. A is also my eye candy btw. but, recently, i sense that his attitude towards me had changed.. take it as i'm paranoid. but i jus haf this feeling that he had some misunderstanding towards me. last time, he used to suan n lame with me. but recently, he seems to refuse to talk to me. the first time when it happen, i ask him, "eh, why today you so quiet?" he replied cuz he's in a bad mood. alright, so i left him along. after then, he did talked to me but it dropped to jus hi, bye n smile. weird.. but til yesterday, when i worked with him again, he showed attitude. when i reach e stall, i saw him. i wanted to say hi but he did not look at me so i waited. but after he's done with his work, he stand aside and not facing me(usually he will stand/sit beside me). i sense unfriendliness. then when a girl drop her cap into e pond, i ask him to help. last time when such thing happen, he will joke and ask me to take it myself. but yest, he asked me who dropped it in a very harsh tone and buay song face. I began to sense things going really wrong. then, when he help to pick up e cap, he smile so brightly to e gal. when he return to my side, he immediately changed back to his buay song attitude. this really pissed me!!! I can seriously feel something's wrong. So, when he decided to close e turtle thingy, i really cannot take it anymore. I slammed the stupid cover and i walked off. I dun care if he can see that i'm angry or wat. I really am. I was so bloody pissed off that I think my fiery thermometer shot to e top. then later after dinner, i talked to one of my other colleague. she too felt it's weird. SO, i decided!! If next week he's going to continue show attitude to me, i'm going to ask him. Ask him what's wrong and why is he showing such attitude to me? I wanna clear things up. I dun want to leave my workplace with someone having hatred towards me. N, i treat him as a fren. It jus like if my fren do this to me, i will do e same by probing. You may think i'm stubborn. YES I M!! It's my principle. I want to know all reasons if a person dislike or attitude me. If it's my fault, i apologise. If it's not, at least i know it's not and i will definitely leave e person alone. I WANNA KNOW THE REASON!!!!! I DUN CARE!!!
Now, move onto friends.. SEE? i told you i got many things to pour out. Okay. first starting with jingmin. I was seriously sorry and upset when i read her blog. I admit i was forgettful to remind her i'm not meeting peixuan(she wanted to join us). I did not know it affected her so much til i read her blog. I quickly sms her and apologise. Although she replied nvm, but i still feel bad. Haiz.. I know she's havin bad days recently and i added onto it. So sorry!! I dun mean it!!! Haiz.. after this, the above incident happened. add onto my feelings. i began to wonder. M i a bad fren or person? Why i seem to be making everyone sad n angry? Why why?? why m i so insensitive to hurt ppl? I'm sorry.. I really felt very very bad. Haiz.. With all e mixed feelings etc, i still hafta continue my projs.. Sian..
Today, while doing my project, i wandered to friendster. HEhe.. breather ma.. Then i saw new uploaded photos. I saw the photos uploaded in colleen friendster. They(shufen, colleen n jess) went to billy bombers on sat. I wasnt invited. in the photos, they look really happy n seems to enjoy themselves alot.. i m really upset.. We used to be a clique and we are really happy together.. but after hols, we drifted or i should i drifted from them. I was pretty upset by this fact quite some time back(long story, dun wish to mention. Only some ppl will know). But last last fri after going out with them, i felt really happy.. i can feel some closeness with them.. i'm really happy.. but today aft seeing the photos, i began to wonder.. izzit jus one sided thing.. maybe to them, i m jus a fren as in normal level 1 fren.. i wasnt invited to join them.. i feel sad.. n after reading colleen testi to shufen n jess, i feel useless.. colleen, one of my close fren was experiencing bad times yet i wasnt by her side.. i feel really bad.. plus all e photos i saw, i think they three are really a clique.. i dun think they remember me.. i know i miss them alot but i dun think i got any more chance to join them.. its my fault.. who ask me to drift from them.. n.. recently when i talk to my best fren jess, i got this feeling that she dun really enjoy talking to me lidat.. her replies are all short and i dunno how to explain.. jus got this feeling.. i feel sad.. i think i'm losing her as a fren too.. she's my best fren..
i dunno what had happened.. but i jus feel that i'm a lousy person n fren.. everyone dun like me.. i really feel very xin gu!! i wanna shout out all my feelings!!! I need someone to help me.. i feel like crying.. i actually did.. i dunno.. i really feel that i m a useless and pest on earth.. i feel that everyone might be happy if i dun go near them etc.. ARGH!!!! i dunno!! I cannot take it anymore!! i wanna cry out loud.. i feel very terrible!!! i need a bad cry n i really do.. can someone help mE??? i wanna cry but i know i cant cuz i know if i do, i might scare my ah ma n my dad who's at home with me now.. pls.. linda.. control urself.. maybe i'm thinking too much..
i hope i am and to all mentioned in the blog, do not be affected by this post.. i just need somewhere to vent my feelings.. i still love you all..
what we could have been, 3:39 PM.
