Monday, June 25, 2007
slept for near 13hrs from yest to today.. repaid all the hours i owe my body..
i know i know.. spider webs crawling on my blog.. haha.. no choice.. busy working..
haizz.. super no life.. my life is only about one thing, EARNING MONEY.. for? TAIWAN!
haizz.. talking about taiwan.. dun even know can go or not.. haiz.. i want a job but the thing is sats hafen called me to let me know when i starting work.. i'm stuck in a bloody dilemma! JOB? TAIWAN? i dun want my frens to be disappointed.. everything's stuck bcuz of me! ME! i cannot decide so they cannot go ahead.. DAMN DAMN!! ARGHHH!!! i hate this!! can they faster call me or kindly pick up my call to let me know agar agar whether i am taken or when m i starting work so everything can flow smoothly.. ARGHH!! DAMN IT! work so hard for what? if i cant even go.. grrrrr! everyone's jus waiting for me to decide then they can move on.. GOD! WHY CANT I DECIDE!! WHY!!! i dun wanna be like this!! i wanna go TAIWAN! I WANT! TAIWAN!!
haizzz.. pardon me.. i m in a really low mood today.. maybe it was from yesterday.. smth super duper terrible happened yesterday..
dunno if i m a really bad worker or she jus have something against me.. she seems to be picking on me so hard.. haizzz.. early in the morning when i start work, she alr been picking on me.. then, the worst came in the afternoon..
i helped one of my colleague wrote his part time form to be submitted in order to get his pay.. then! cuz i used a new sheet which is different from the one we usually use. BUT, i asked another sup if i can use this cuz the old one runs out and she said ok! so, i used it. end up, she wanted my colleague to change over to use the old one which i dunno where she got it from. and then! she called me and tell me in an unfriendly tone: "linda low, next time you wanna help ppl write their form, pls see properly before you write." so i was like huh? whats wrong? then she replied:"you go ask roy yourself." and she jus hang up lidat! what the..
i was busy and i picked up the call hearing her say all these and hang up.. i was super pissed off.. i was so angry then i cannot take it.. i almost scold vulgarities but of course only in my heart.. i mean as a supervisor, what kind of bloody attitude is this?
i was so pissed that i dunno where to vent but only to let them out thru my eyes. cant stop tearing.. i was very pissed and agitated.. i was really dumbfounded and confused.. i called back but she dun pick up the call.. super pissed.. told my colleague and they can tell how angry and pissed i m that they keep telling me to cool it.. i was really pissed off.. if you were there to see, i bet you might be shocked to see this side of me.. i was so angry til my head is like spinning with anger and my chest moving up n down so hard due to my breathing..
i really want to thrash it out with her.. i mean if i m really wrong, at least you tell me in a better attitude not like this.. so i told another supervisor about it.. of course, i cant help tearin also when telling her.. so, she helped me to go n tell the meano..
all i ask for is for her to know that her attitude is totally unbearable.. this is not how you treat you subordinates if you want them to respect and listen to you.. end up, the meano called me again and apologise.. she said she was busy and didnt mean to hang up.. so i told her, no matter how busy, you shldnt hang up on the other party and if she really dun like me, jus tell me straight.. dun do this to me.. i was tearin pretty badly when i said all these.. end up, she said sorry..
i felt better cuz at least i got the respect i deserved.. haizz... did i really get the respect? do i?
been pretty emo for today.. yest's incident, taiwan trip and many others things.. i jus realized.. i hafen met up with many of my frens.. my khakis.. my darlings.. my crankies.. many many.. haizzz.. sorry frens, i will try to meet up with you all..
friends friends friends.. do i really have so many frens as ppl see? hw many true and close frens do i have? izzit true that so long you put in effort into one friendship, it will definitely work? haizz..
saw someone's blog and realised the guys in 08 had booked out and met up with others except us.. 08 08 08.. the class spirit.. can it really go on? can 08 really go on for long? why izzit that they nv take initiative to come to say time to meet up.. why izzit there must always others who organize then they will come.. why why? i'm tired of doing this.. SICK! TIRED!
i treat some like my buddies but do they really treat me like one? do they really think of me when they book out? do they do they? dont bother to reply my sms.. dont bother to even tell me that you book out.. dun bother to update me how you have been getting on.. well, fine.. i'm stupid to show concern.. i'm stupid to bother about you all.. i'm stupid to organise gatherings for the sake that i thought this is smth i can do to make you all happy before you guys go in.. well, fine.. one-sided! FINE! whatever..
ARGGHHH!!!! damn damn damn! i hate this! i hate being emo! i hate mood swings! i hate everything! i hate that i delay things! i hate that i screw things up! i hate myself for making my frens wait! i hate! i hate!! i hate that i am such a busybody! i hate that i do things thinking that ppl will appreciate! i hate all this part of me!! i hate to smile everyday! i hate to be happy! I HATE IT!!!
ARGGHHH!!! DAMN IT! i'm EMO! yes i m! ARGGHHH!!!!!!!! whats happening to me?!!! maybe i jus need a good rest.. maybe i m still tired.. i jus think too much..
alright, alright, sleep sleep sleep.. rest more.. hopefully i can get over all these thoughts tml.. its jus been a bad day.. =(
linda low will be fine tml.. trust her.. she can do it.. she can.. and she will.. tml's a better day..
i know i know.. spider webs crawling on my blog.. haha.. no choice.. busy working..
haizz.. super no life.. my life is only about one thing, EARNING MONEY.. for? TAIWAN!
haizz.. talking about taiwan.. dun even know can go or not.. haiz.. i want a job but the thing is sats hafen called me to let me know when i starting work.. i'm stuck in a bloody dilemma! JOB? TAIWAN? i dun want my frens to be disappointed.. everything's stuck bcuz of me! ME! i cannot decide so they cannot go ahead.. DAMN DAMN!! ARGHHH!!! i hate this!! can they faster call me or kindly pick up my call to let me know agar agar whether i am taken or when m i starting work so everything can flow smoothly.. ARGHH!! DAMN IT! work so hard for what? if i cant even go.. grrrrr! everyone's jus waiting for me to decide then they can move on.. GOD! WHY CANT I DECIDE!! WHY!!! i dun wanna be like this!! i wanna go TAIWAN! I WANT! TAIWAN!!
haizzz.. pardon me.. i m in a really low mood today.. maybe it was from yesterday.. smth super duper terrible happened yesterday..
dunno if i m a really bad worker or she jus have something against me.. she seems to be picking on me so hard.. haizzz.. early in the morning when i start work, she alr been picking on me.. then, the worst came in the afternoon..
i helped one of my colleague wrote his part time form to be submitted in order to get his pay.. then! cuz i used a new sheet which is different from the one we usually use. BUT, i asked another sup if i can use this cuz the old one runs out and she said ok! so, i used it. end up, she wanted my colleague to change over to use the old one which i dunno where she got it from. and then! she called me and tell me in an unfriendly tone: "linda low, next time you wanna help ppl write their form, pls see properly before you write." so i was like huh? whats wrong? then she replied:"you go ask roy yourself." and she jus hang up lidat! what the..
i was busy and i picked up the call hearing her say all these and hang up.. i was super pissed off.. i was so angry then i cannot take it.. i almost scold vulgarities but of course only in my heart.. i mean as a supervisor, what kind of bloody attitude is this?
i was so pissed that i dunno where to vent but only to let them out thru my eyes. cant stop tearing.. i was very pissed and agitated.. i was really dumbfounded and confused.. i called back but she dun pick up the call.. super pissed.. told my colleague and they can tell how angry and pissed i m that they keep telling me to cool it.. i was really pissed off.. if you were there to see, i bet you might be shocked to see this side of me.. i was so angry til my head is like spinning with anger and my chest moving up n down so hard due to my breathing..
i really want to thrash it out with her.. i mean if i m really wrong, at least you tell me in a better attitude not like this.. so i told another supervisor about it.. of course, i cant help tearin also when telling her.. so, she helped me to go n tell the meano..
all i ask for is for her to know that her attitude is totally unbearable.. this is not how you treat you subordinates if you want them to respect and listen to you.. end up, the meano called me again and apologise.. she said she was busy and didnt mean to hang up.. so i told her, no matter how busy, you shldnt hang up on the other party and if she really dun like me, jus tell me straight.. dun do this to me.. i was tearin pretty badly when i said all these.. end up, she said sorry..
i felt better cuz at least i got the respect i deserved.. haizz... did i really get the respect? do i?
been pretty emo for today.. yest's incident, taiwan trip and many others things.. i jus realized.. i hafen met up with many of my frens.. my khakis.. my darlings.. my crankies.. many many.. haizzz.. sorry frens, i will try to meet up with you all..
friends friends friends.. do i really have so many frens as ppl see? hw many true and close frens do i have? izzit true that so long you put in effort into one friendship, it will definitely work? haizz..
saw someone's blog and realised the guys in 08 had booked out and met up with others except us.. 08 08 08.. the class spirit.. can it really go on? can 08 really go on for long? why izzit that they nv take initiative to come to say time to meet up.. why izzit there must always others who organize then they will come.. why why? i'm tired of doing this.. SICK! TIRED!
i treat some like my buddies but do they really treat me like one? do they really think of me when they book out? do they do they? dont bother to reply my sms.. dont bother to even tell me that you book out.. dun bother to update me how you have been getting on.. well, fine.. i'm stupid to show concern.. i'm stupid to bother about you all.. i'm stupid to organise gatherings for the sake that i thought this is smth i can do to make you all happy before you guys go in.. well, fine.. one-sided! FINE! whatever..
ARGGHHH!!!! damn damn damn! i hate this! i hate being emo! i hate mood swings! i hate everything! i hate that i delay things! i hate that i screw things up! i hate myself for making my frens wait! i hate! i hate!! i hate that i am such a busybody! i hate that i do things thinking that ppl will appreciate! i hate all this part of me!! i hate to smile everyday! i hate to be happy! I HATE IT!!!
ARGGHHH!!! DAMN IT! i'm EMO! yes i m! ARGGHHH!!!!!!!! whats happening to me?!!! maybe i jus need a good rest.. maybe i m still tired.. i jus think too much..
alright, alright, sleep sleep sleep.. rest more.. hopefully i can get over all these thoughts tml.. its jus been a bad day.. =(
linda low will be fine tml.. trust her.. she can do it.. she can.. and she will.. tml's a better day..
what we could have been, 6:43 PM.
