Thursday, March 06, 2008
I held onto the slightest hope that you will not disappoint me BUT still, as expected, you msg me to say you wont be able to meet me. I admit i expected the msg to come but still, when it came, i jus went DISAPPOINTED once again.
Call me emotional or taking things too hard to heart, but thats how i behave whenever matters of friendship occurs. Perhaps i jus take friendship too hard to heart. I will definitely feel sad whenever one friend disappoint me. I hate being unappreciated. But YET, it always happen to me.
Sometimes i ask myself. M i really such a lousy friend? OR am i really that insignificant? OR am i really too UGLY, IRRITATING, DETESTABLE to be worth appreciated? WHY WHY WHY? WHY does such things always happen? Izzit because i jus put in way too much efforts and heart into every friendship and that i am so naive to believe everyone will be nice to me so long i am nice to them? I dunno. I jus hate this. I REALLY DO.
I hope you can answer this question for me. All i want is the TRUTH. If you really find me irritating or whatsoever as a friend, tell me. I know how to write the word, 自动.
I've used up the tears available in my backup glands. I have no more for today. Dun find me over but i am still a gal after all. My tears glands are more active and i admit i'm a crybaby. I cry because i very much take you as a friend. I very much cherish our friendship. Please, show me for once that i have mistaken you. And that you do treat me as a friend. Show me that this friendship is worth holding onto and not letting go of. Please, dun DISAPPOINT me once again.
I'm feeling tired already. Its time to head to my comfort zone. Nite.
Call me emotional or taking things too hard to heart, but thats how i behave whenever matters of friendship occurs. Perhaps i jus take friendship too hard to heart. I will definitely feel sad whenever one friend disappoint me. I hate being unappreciated. But YET, it always happen to me.
Sometimes i ask myself. M i really such a lousy friend? OR am i really that insignificant? OR am i really too UGLY, IRRITATING, DETESTABLE to be worth appreciated? WHY WHY WHY? WHY does such things always happen? Izzit because i jus put in way too much efforts and heart into every friendship and that i am so naive to believe everyone will be nice to me so long i am nice to them? I dunno. I jus hate this. I REALLY DO.
I hope you can answer this question for me. All i want is the TRUTH. If you really find me irritating or whatsoever as a friend, tell me. I know how to write the word, 自动.
I've used up the tears available in my backup glands. I have no more for today. Dun find me over but i am still a gal after all. My tears glands are more active and i admit i'm a crybaby. I cry because i very much take you as a friend. I very much cherish our friendship. Please, show me for once that i have mistaken you. And that you do treat me as a friend. Show me that this friendship is worth holding onto and not letting go of. Please, dun DISAPPOINT me once again.
I'm feeling tired already. Its time to head to my comfort zone. Nite.
what we could have been, 7:41 PM.
