Friday, March 14, 2008
Rainy days are over... Sunny days are here.. My rainbow is out..
Emo days are over.. I'm happy once again. I finally finally know what i want, where i'm heading. Thanks for the clarity. Thanks for helping me find my answer. Like i say, a special fren you are, a special fren you will be. Although the answer you gave me is not what i really want, but i accept, i accept cuz i know my heart is satisfied and contented by it. I'm purely over sensitive.
I sat at East Coast Park alone yesterday after work for 2 hours. I sat by the pavilion, watched over the sea and clear my thoughts. I cried all i want and asked myself what i want. What i really really want. And now i know, i only want you to be my friend, as long as possible, forever and ever. I want you to know how close i take this friendship and glad that now you know. I feel so much better now. Alot alot better. My 2 weeks of emo-ing are over. I shld go back to myself, the old strong happy me. The weather follows how i feel. The heavy rain on the last 2 days signifies how heavy my feelings were. And today, with the bright sun out, i tell myself, its time to come out from the gloomy clouds to receive the warm bright sunshine.
Thanks my dear friends for showering me with all those care and concern. For you all, i promise, i wont be that emo anymore. Like kai say, he's not used to see a strong person down. And so i promise, i will be strong as before. Even stronger to be true. I thank you Kai, for calling me on that right moment to let me pour everything to you. You definitely helped alot. Thats y for once i say out loud to you, I LOVE YOU KAI! =)
I'm happy you like the present. I'm happy now you know how much i care about our friendship. I am happy i can continue to be around you, to enjoy your company. To be playful as usual. Thanks for helping me find my answer. I am grateful to you and apologetic for doubting you. All i can say is i jus cant bear to lose you as a friend and glad i dun now. Thanks for everything. I really dunno what else to say.
To my dear friend who's going through the time of the year, emo-ing is fine. Jus dun overdo it. Its tiring to cry. Smile, its much easier. Dun forget my phone is on 24/7. I'm ready to catch your tears. I've found my sense of affiliation, i hope you will discover you never lose yours too. Find yourself a getaway spot. Roll down all your tears and you will definitely feel better. Remember, emo-ing is tired. I miss the crappy you. Jiayou. I've been through my gloomy days, walk out of yours soon.
And last, I love the leap years. It makes me cry one whole packet of tissue with every piece soaked and tattered. I like all the quotes esp one, "If you are not too long, I will wait." I will wait too, for my mr right to appear. I hafen forget my 20th birthday wish, to find one by 21st to celebrate my 21st. I still got nine more months to go. I will wait patiently like Li-Ann.
I'm tired of crying and so i promise, I will smile. Its easier to smile than cry. I truly can feel. I feel so relieved now. I'm happy to see the road ahead clearer. With the rain, it washes all my sadness and brings out my rainbow. I'm happier now. I truly am. =)
Emo days are over.. I'm happy once again. I finally finally know what i want, where i'm heading. Thanks for the clarity. Thanks for helping me find my answer. Like i say, a special fren you are, a special fren you will be. Although the answer you gave me is not what i really want, but i accept, i accept cuz i know my heart is satisfied and contented by it. I'm purely over sensitive.
I sat at East Coast Park alone yesterday after work for 2 hours. I sat by the pavilion, watched over the sea and clear my thoughts. I cried all i want and asked myself what i want. What i really really want. And now i know, i only want you to be my friend, as long as possible, forever and ever. I want you to know how close i take this friendship and glad that now you know. I feel so much better now. Alot alot better. My 2 weeks of emo-ing are over. I shld go back to myself, the old strong happy me. The weather follows how i feel. The heavy rain on the last 2 days signifies how heavy my feelings were. And today, with the bright sun out, i tell myself, its time to come out from the gloomy clouds to receive the warm bright sunshine.
Thanks my dear friends for showering me with all those care and concern. For you all, i promise, i wont be that emo anymore. Like kai say, he's not used to see a strong person down. And so i promise, i will be strong as before. Even stronger to be true. I thank you Kai, for calling me on that right moment to let me pour everything to you. You definitely helped alot. Thats y for once i say out loud to you, I LOVE YOU KAI! =)
I'm happy you like the present. I'm happy now you know how much i care about our friendship. I am happy i can continue to be around you, to enjoy your company. To be playful as usual. Thanks for helping me find my answer. I am grateful to you and apologetic for doubting you. All i can say is i jus cant bear to lose you as a friend and glad i dun now. Thanks for everything. I really dunno what else to say.
To my dear friend who's going through the time of the year, emo-ing is fine. Jus dun overdo it. Its tiring to cry. Smile, its much easier. Dun forget my phone is on 24/7. I'm ready to catch your tears. I've found my sense of affiliation, i hope you will discover you never lose yours too. Find yourself a getaway spot. Roll down all your tears and you will definitely feel better. Remember, emo-ing is tired. I miss the crappy you. Jiayou. I've been through my gloomy days, walk out of yours soon.
And last, I love the leap years. It makes me cry one whole packet of tissue with every piece soaked and tattered. I like all the quotes esp one, "If you are not too long, I will wait." I will wait too, for my mr right to appear. I hafen forget my 20th birthday wish, to find one by 21st to celebrate my 21st. I still got nine more months to go. I will wait patiently like Li-Ann.
I'm tired of crying and so i promise, I will smile. Its easier to smile than cry. I truly can feel. I feel so relieved now. I'm happy to see the road ahead clearer. With the rain, it washes all my sadness and brings out my rainbow. I'm happier now. I truly am. =)
what we could have been, 11:14 AM.
