Friday, June 13, 2008

Thurs morning, i hate it. I received the worst news i ever wanted. One of my closest poly guy friend left me.

Goodbye Lam Jiahao, my dearest okii atama..

I cannot stop crying ever since thurs morning. I cant believe and accept that i was still laming with you before you went off. I tried to tell myself the guy they are talking about in e news and the papers are not you. Not my dearest lam jiahao.

You didnt like me to call you by ur chinese name but i always love to. You didnt like me to call you okii atama but i always love to. You love to tease me, crap nonsense with me, irritate me and make me laugh non stop with your lame jokes. But why cant you tell me this time that everything's a joke and that you are jus pulling my leg. Why why?

You promise me to be back for 08 gathering. But you break your promise to me. I dun want you to fulfil me to be present with 08 under such circumstances.

Can you be back to call me darling like you always do? I promise i wont be disgusted. Can you be back to fight with me? I promise i wont retaliate. Can you be back to fight with the class guys over me? I promise i will choose you. I know you always wanted me to say this and this time i will say it out loud. I love you Lam Jiahao. I miss you Lam Jiahao. I really do.

I hate to see you leave but i know i have to be strong. Rest in peace my darling. You are once an 08, forever an 08.

Imissmyloveshapedluncheonmeat.Imissthegogopowerranger.Imissyourlameness.
Imissyourgayismwiththeguys.imissyoulamjiahao.Imissmyokiiatamasan.

what we could have been, 6:06 PM.